Life Plan

So i've been thinking a lot lately about where my life is going, and I've decided to create a 'lil road map to put me in a good position, and to refer to incase I got lost in this crazy world.

Here she is;

I am going to take ten paces to the left, and then... scratch that. I am going to work my lil buns off this summer and save a ridiculous amount of money. This summer I was going to go to all the concerts I want to go, and relax a bit more and love life instead. BUT I have decided against that, and am going to go in slave labour mode instead. Now, I need to save copeious amounts of money because after this next coming school year, which will indeed be my last (and I will have a degree!), I plan on quitting my sometimes hell-ish job and throwing myself totally into the unknown. The unknown being leaving here and volunteering elsewhere - anywhere in the world! For four entire months. Now, some may say i'm just caught up in the excitement of Charity, as I went to a really intense charity event last night for invisible children. But, I don't think so. Always in highschool I wanted more out of this little old life I lead. I was always interested in environmental and politcal issues, but somewhere along the way I got lost. Which is why I should have had my road map out. I thought for sure I was going to do something that really truely mattered. That I was going to speak to people about things I deeply care about, and motivate people to do the right things. But where did I end up? I ended up in a fast paced, high stress environment that is so corrupt that its insane. I work for people who just don't give a fuck about you, and think that you are just another number in their establishment. I get yelled at by my boss, my equals, my subordinates, and the customers. All for what in the long run? So someone can have a nice little meal? How about I take all of my knowledge and heart and try to feed people who don't have any food, rather than some large casino gambling asshole who thinks he's top shit? I really need more from this life. Which brings me to part two, or three, or four or whatever it is now.

Let's recap. Working at Souless for one more year, and I have one more year of school left till I have my Bachelor of Applied Business in Hospitality Operations Management, and then I QUIT and throw myself into 4 months of volunteering for whichever cause I feel needs me the most (and that I am most passionate about). THEN after those four months, I have decided to go back to school for a post grad certificate program in Special Events Management. Thus, giving me a degree and a more specialized edge. After I graduate, I will then be ready to hit the work force at full speed. I will have had my time off by travelling the summer before while volunteering, and I'll be at a great age to really get started. Maybe with my special events I'll be able to throw some events that really, really matter in the grand scheme of things. We'll see, I haven't gotten THAT far yet. But I really think I am on the road to success. It's a lot to pack into two years and to expect of myself. But I have really high expectations for myself, and believe that I can perservere.

I will be happy, and I will make a difference.

You'll see.

Worried Sick

Good News = Probably don't have mono. Thank god. Doc says it's more transferrable with continuous exposure, rather than a few sips from a drink.

Bad News = Doc likes to sneak attack therapy sessions with me from time to time. He raises valid points. But they are points I like to ignore, and points that I'd rather no one be able to see at first glance.

And I still feel like the flu. Doc says i'm worrying myself sick, I say, Andrea threw up all weekend, therefore I throw up all week, and then big momma, and then my dad. SO I HAVE THE FLU, TAKE THAT DOCTOR!

Throw-upz

Summer Love

Spring is in the air. I can smell it. Which means that summer is oh so close as well. Last weekend, the ladies and I travelled to Toronto for an amazingly good time. Sure I spent a ton of money that I would have otherwise loved to have kept in my bank account, but I don't regret it. I ate at wonderful veg/vegan restaurants all weekend, which make me smile hugely, and saw some great pals that I missed soooo much. Especially the boys from out West. If I had it my way, 5 wonderful lads from the West would live here and me and my girls would hang with them all the time. It would make life so much better! Also, as much as I love the cold, i wish it was summer all the time, because that is when most of my best memories have occurred. I love car rides in the summer, it's where most of the best reminicing occurs. I also love all the music festivals that go down in the summer, and the fact that I am not in school anymore during the summer, which means I work more, which equals more money, and more shifts I am able to switch to do what I want. Only a month left of school till fun times!

Bring it On.

sicksicksick

I wish my blog was more entertaining.

So I feel like feking shit right now. I don't know if i'm psyching myself out because I just found out Jess has mono [ : ( ], or if i'm actually sick. I shared a beverage with Jess about two weeks ago, so i'm pretty much shitting my pants right now. Not to mention I had to give someone I made out with a while ago the heads up that he might have mono.. and he is NOT IMPRESSED. I mean, I don't blame him, obviously no one is happy about this sort of thing. But it's not like I did it on purpose. And I don't even know if I have it! I'm going to go tomorrow to check er out. My symptoms right now are just flu like symptoms, which aren't generally mono symtoms. So maybe I just have the flu or food poisoning or something. But yeah. This little guessing game is noooo funnnn. Especially on St. Patrick's Day when I should be drinking (as I don't work or have school tomorrow), and when I should be having ridiculous amounts of fun. Ohhhh wellll, I told myself to stop drinking so much anyways.

On to part two. A certain boy has come back into my life. Is it actually possible that i'm willing to give up single land for him? Let's think about this rationally. What do I like so much about single land? Well, you can do whatever you want. You don't have to answer to anyone. You can randomly hook up with whomever you want, slut tits. And you can shamelessly flirt and have ridiculous crushes. This all sounds pretty unreal, BUT, I actually don't do all of these things. I don't actually hook up with a ton of dudes, and I actually refuse to have sex with someone I am not legit interested in (I just found that out recently). So maybe it's time to leave single land and move back to boyfriendville. That's if I turn out to be super into the dude, because I refuse to waste my time and feelings on someone who is not worthy of them again. Who knowssss. I like that fact that me and all my friends are single, but I don't think anyone would object to any of us getting into a relationship. We'llllll seeeeeee. I'm not too worried about it. Just go with zee flow.

Now i'm going to watch chronz of narn 1 and 2 tonight, and try to force my body to feel better. I can't afford to be sick. I don't have enough time for it and all its bullshit.

Gut Crunchhhh.

Note To Self

Dear Megan,

Stop drinking so much.
Stop investing so much energy into the opposite sex.
Stop pretending to be a slut because you're actually not.
Stop stressin'.
Stop staying up so late.

And fucking get back into loving life, because it's far more fun for me when you do.

Man Up.

Hoffzillaaaaa!

To quote Olivia Newten John..

"Let's get physical, physical. Let's get physical, physical."

Better do some lunges. There's some new hot ladies in town, and they are going to eat your heart out. They call themselves The Hoffs, and they are complete babes. They know how to flirt, and they aren't afraid to drop it dowwwwwwn. Fathers, lock up your sons, because the girls are back in town.

To hop on the Hoff Train, just prepare a 100 word essay on why you are such a dirt bag, and what you can bring to the plate.

Slut Buckets.